My life is beautifully blessed beyond all measure and my baby brother has a rapidly progressing, terminal degenerative brain disorder. I have more abundance and access to food than humans have had in any time in history and I have no idea how to nourish myself well. I know that everything is unfolding in the long run as it needs to and I feel a restless, urgent need to change everything immediately.
Sky vast joy and ocean deep sorrow exist together in me.
Seeming opposites are very true. Both/and are on steroids in my life right now.
From deep within I am being transformed by the polarities in my life. How can dualistic mind survive this? Oh for the comfort of either/or and black/white thinking! Oh for the peace of a simplistic one or the other, with or against, us or them world!
I’m being forcibly expanded, perhaps even blown apart, by my lived truth of simultaneous this AND that, yin AND yang, grace AND struggle.
Holding all these simultaneously is thoroughly destabilizing and delightfully resonant, true, deep, solid, and grounded. It’s crazy making. Radical. Inspirational and so very, very wild.
And it’s making something way more vast and meaningful possible for me now.